ponder | the velveteen rabbit

“It doesn’t happen all at once,” said the Skin Horse. “You become. It takes a long time. That’s why it doesn’t happen often to people who break easily, or have sharp edges, or who have to be carefully kept. Generally, by the time you are Real, most of your hair has been loved off, and your eyes drop out and you get loose in the joints and very shabby. But these things don’t matter at all, because once you are Real you can’t be ugly, except to people who don’t understand.”

“I suppose you are real?” said the Rabbit. And then he wished he had not said it, for he thought the Skin Horse might be sensitive. But the Skin Horse only smiled.


so, i have been moving through the children’s books in the last couple of weeks. you gotta do something to stay alert during nighttime feeding sessions. and the other night, i picked up our copy of the velveteen rabbit. as i was reading to ridley and flipping the pages, that passage above struck me. isn’t that beautiful? and isn’t that what life is about? becoming.

life is a process of becoming. becoming more, better, smarter, wiser, stronger, softer, kinder. becoming more like Christ and more of who God created you to be. becoming REAL. moving away from insecurity and immaturity. becoming more authentic and honest and open and relatable and true. building a testimony of faith. and this lifelong process often means some hair being worn off and your eyes dropping out and loose joints and even, a shabby appearance. but that is what makes you real. makes you relatable. makes you lovable.

i hope that as i go through life, God will round the rough edges, soften my hard parts, and “love off” that which is unnecessary in order to expose a deeper beauty. i want to be someone who is always becoming. who is real.

taking stock | june’s end

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making // silly faces.
cooking // nothing. my awesome man is taking care of all that these days and he is killing it.
drinking // my bodyweight in water and coconut water.
reading // scripture to our little man.
wanting // another slice of ben’s delicious bread.
looking // at dance classes for elinor.
playing // bob dylan on repeat. because elinor is obsessed with him.
wasting // wipes and diapers. newborns. sheesh.
sewing // still nada.
wishing // that i could fast-forward and freeze time, all at once.
enjoying // morning snuggles with my family.
waiting // for ben and elinor to return from the store.
liking // ridley’s soft baby blankets.
loving // life.
hoping // in God’s promises.
marveling // at elinor’s maturity + my man’s attentiveness and kindness + ridley’s growth and changes.
needing // a fresh mascara.
smelling // clary sage.
wearing // strapless terry dresses. cool for summer and perfect for lounging and breastfeeding.
noticing // how quickly the hours pass.
knowing // that i am loved.
thinking // about some mini-getaway ideas.
feeling // all the feelings.
bookmarking // the book of romans + our children’s storybook bible + my j.crew catalogue.
opening // a green chia kombucha.
giggling // at funny baby expressions and elinor’s jokes.

past post here

bébé numéro deux | 1 week old

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baby boy has been here for one whole week and we are all officially smitten. he is just the dreamiest. he is a bit of a leisurely eater but is learning to pick up the pace. he has pee’d pretty much everywhere as his parents work to figure out this whole diapering a boy business. he has lost his umbilical stump so there is a legit bellybutton now. he poops a billion times a day and usually while he is eating – stuff goes in and stuff comes out. he has a quiet little whimper cry that he likes to use when he is displeased with something (which isn’t too often. again, he’s the dreamiest). he loves to give his mama little hugs while burping and hold hands while eating. he thinks his papa is fascinating and funny and likes to mess with his beard. he gets so tickled by his big sister and stares at her sweetly. he has the longest arms and legs…and feet. he has the coolest widow’s peak. he has deep, dark, blue eyes that are ever so intense. he has the pinkest skin. he loves to be held tightly while he curls up like a little frog. he seems to enjoy mama’s lullaby and hymn singing during nighttime feedings. he likes to sleep on his side, all swaddled up. and he loves to sleep, in general.

baby boy has gained some solid weight since birth and is currently 6lbs 14 ounces. good job, buddy. he is letting his mama get some solid sleep too which is just grand. everyone is healthy and over the moon delighted.

life is good. God is good. we are so grateful for our family. and it just gets better each day.

soli deo gloria.

dear little prince, welcome to the world.

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ridley noble whitehouse entered the world on june 18, 2016 at 1:28pm.

born in the water and en caul in gilbert, arizona. 

6 pounds 8 ounces

21 inches long

he is healthy and sweet and perfect. 

thank you all for your sweet words and encouragement and prayers. we are enjoying this time as our little family and soaking up that newborn smell and baby snuggles. all is well. and God is good. i will be back to share more of his birth story and WAY TOO MANY pictures of our dear little prince.