hello, little miss. you sure are getting to be one big peanut! we had your one month checkup a bit ago and you are perfection. getting taller and plumper each day. and that head, oh that head, it is growing. your papa and i happen to think it is to accommodate your significant brain. you are already one smart cookie! you follow me around with your eyes. you stare at things and analyze the world around you. you move your head toward your papa’s voice. you gaze at your colorful dangling rattle toys and kick away with excitement. you coo and squawk. but, we know the truth…those are much more that sounds. you are talking to us, aren’t you? your own sweet little language that we simply love.
and, it’s official. you can no longer fit into your newborn onesies. you are officially a 0-3 month sizer now. i must admit that i had a bit of an emotional moment at your dresser when i realized that the newborn phase has come to a close. you are just all baby now. our little peanut.
oh, and can i just brag about you a bit? you are starting to sleep through the night. we are talking a whole 7 hours in one stretch. amazing! keep it up sweet girl. while i will miss our special time together in the middle of the night, i must admit that your face looks even more adorable and yummy after a good night’s sleep. another milestone. i can’t wait to see what you will show us next.
this has been quite a week. and may i just say that i am slightly overwhelmed that you are already THREE WEEKS OLD! and, you are starting to fill out your 0-3 clothing! you are such a good little eater…even though you occasionally spit some of your food all over your papa. burp cloths are our new best friend.
we have gone on some strolls through the neighborhood and around outdoor shopping areas, and you have been a trooper. there have been many outings and visitors as well, because people want to see your cute little face! and who can blame them. thank you for being so good as we parade you about the city and plop you in and out of car seats and strollers and carriers. you seem to somewhat enjoy the activity which we think is pretty great. you go with the flow and like the hustle and bustle.
this week, we have started getting into the swing of things. you know that nighttime is for sleeping…wahoo! and you love to be wide-eyed during the daytime so you don’t miss anything that is happening around you. the world is such a big and fascinating place for your little eyes to behold. and i love holding you while you explore your surroundings. i can see your brain spinning and taking it all in. so much fun. we are so excited to watch you grow and learn in the coming days and weeks and months and years. you are doing it all so quickly and we are just trying to keep up and rejoice with every moment.
oh, well, hello there! as you can see, mozart the monkey is happily awaiting your arrival. he has informed me, however, that his excitement is getting really intense and his patience is wearing thin. so, you know, for mozart’s sake…you might want to consider coming soon. for mozart.
us? oh, we are fine. yup. just sitting here, patiently waiting for you. the request isn’t for us. we are good. really, mozart is the one with the problem.
in other news…we have everything ready for you. room ready. car seat in. bags packed. plans made. good to go. your papa is on alert and is trying to maintain focus until he gets my call. codename: skyfall. that is the signal that things are starting to happen… skyfall. we figured it was an apropos code. it has a playful chicken little meets swanky secret agent 007 feel to it.
anywho…here we are. still here. waiting for skyfall. any time, little one. any time… oh, we just can’t wait to meet you!
oh my goodness. what if this is my last dear peanut letter? we are so close now that it is a real possibility. your papa and i keep saying things like…this could be our last weekend, just the two of us…this could be our last dinner before she comes…this could be your last day at the office…this could be the last load of laundry before she arrives…and on and on and on. we aren’t getting our hopes up that you will arrive early but we are doing our best to prepare, just in case. the reality is that i could very well be writing three more letters to you [eek! please don't linger that long!] before your arrival. this sure is a lesson in patience, little one.
God is teaching me to be still. even though i am so very excited to meet you and get to know you, i am trying to soak up the last moments of this season. i am trying to enjoy the final days of pregnancy…i know that not everybody gets to experience the birth of their child in this physical manner. so, i am trying to not complain but to be grateful that my Heavenly Father has allowed me to carry you. that He has allowed my body to adjust and to sustain you for this long. so many women cannot conceive. so many women have turbulent pregnancies. some women’s bodies fight against them. some women’s bodies just can’t or won’t carry them through to the end. i have been given this special gift of pregnancy and heaven forbid that i take that for granted. in my moments of frustration, i remind myself that God has blessed me with this time and wants to use this time to mold my heart. no complaining allowed!
God is using all of it to prepare me. when i bump my bump into a chair, He is teaching me to slow down and be watchful. when i cannot do the things that i used to do in the same way, He is teaching me that i am not in control and that i need to rely on His supply and grace. when i get frustrated, He is teaching me self-control. when i have to swallow yet another capsule or vitamin or healthy supplement, He is teaching me to put the needs of others before my own. God has me in training. i am training to be a parent. He is molding me into a mother. preparing my heart for your arrival. and i need to take advantage of this time because once you arrive, little one, we move into major on-the-job training. bring on the feeding charts and piles of diapers and pediatrician visits and sleep deprivation. it is going to be so blissfully bewildering.
hello there miss peanut. i hope you are having fun hanging out in my pelvis! must be a nice change of scenery for you. i can tell that you are reveling. i must say, while i like that you have shifted down out of the ribs [sweet full lung capacity!] you are making things a bit more goofy in the “walking” arena. hmmm. please don’t make me resort to waddling, little one. not a cute look.
on a super adorable note: we got your diaper starter pack in the mail and they are just the cutest things! your papa even brought one into work with him to show off how tiny you are and how precious those little BM-collectors are. i think he’s got it pretty bad. papa-citis has taken over. and i am no better. we are officially those people. the ones who tear-up over smooshy, squiggly, and goofy-looking ultrasounds. the ones who show off diapers to co-workers. diapers! the ones who ooh and ahh over crocheted baby hats. the ones who sniff baby lotion. [that one might be just me] we are your parents. your earthly stewards. the ones that God has predestined to care for you and raise you. what a tremendous blessing and calling. what an overwhelming gift. and you are stuck with us, little one. all our flaws and eccentricities and personality. in spite of it all, please know that our hearts’ desire is to be godly parents…with a generous helping of grace and plenty of prayer. we love you and we take you and our new role very seriously. such a prodigious, substantial, considerable [and all words BIG] responsibility swaddled into such a tiny package. you are a precious gift from our Heavenly Father that we will preserve, cherish, love, cultivate, and polish. for His glory and for our good.
hello there, little peanut. your parents are pretty excited to meet you. we keep staring at your sonogram. that little nose. your ears. the eyelashes. your tiny fingers all curled up next to your mouth. the hair. it is kind of our new favorite thing. a parental pacifier to keep us from jumping out of our skin from excitement. you will be here so soon! my goodness. we can’t wait to meet you and see that precious face. will you have your papa’s nose? will you have my hair? i hope you don’t mind if we just sit and stare at you for a while once you arrive. because the real thing will be so much better than the sonogram…
just so you know, i have scheduled out all of my doctor appointments from now until the due date. woah. on the calendar. the doctor was happy with us this week and said that everything was progressing beautifully. your heartbeat is strong. my blood pressure is good. you are growing at a consistent rate. and the belly size is small but solid. all good. just waiting for the right time.
love, your mama + your papa
JOINT FAMILY ADDENDUM
with regard to the aforementioned “right time” remark: your entire family respectfully requests that you, while chatting with God, mention the following arrival tips and suggestions. you know, in case He asks your opinion on the matter…your family has some ideas and opinions [ahem, always] to help you along.
please, do not arrive earlier than sunday, october 21.
saturday, october 27 – tuesday, october 30 are nice dates.
please, no halloween birthday. the ongoing birthday party expectations are frankly, overwhelming for everyone.
if not before wednesday, october 31, please refrain from a thursday, november 1 or friday, november 2 arrival.
saturday, november 3 – monday, november 5 are good days too. try to steer clear of election day. too much political pressure that day. it is best to stay put and swim around for a bit longer in a blissful state of unawareness.
PLEASE do not loiter in the uterus for longer than one week past your due date. i know it seems nice in there, but we’ve got some soft, warm, and cozy things waiting for you on the outside.
if you must delay, please do not come on saturday, november 10. that is coco’s birthday. the poor thing already has enough personality disorders and neuroses, we don’t want to send her off the deep end by making her share a birthday with the “favored, non-furry” baby of the family. who knows which of your stuffed animals she might rip to shreds in a psychotic break… let us just keep the familial peace and sidestep the issue altogether.
with respect and love,
[and in the knowledge that it is God who numbers our days]
[and with an understanding that the same God who knows the number of grains of sand considers our requests]
your nerdy, scheduled, active, and kooky family.
don’t roll your eyes, little miss, i’m sure you’ve got some of these genes going on…
hello again, little one. i trust that all is well inside the belly. things are going pretty well on the outside. we are getting so very close to your joining us out here! very, very close. i am now seeing the doctor weekly until your arrival. she will be checking that heartbeat of yours and making sure that things are strong and that you continue to grow. at our last appointment, she told me that you are on the small side of the scale. but teeny in a good way. as in, a good size for your mama… they are going to keep an eye on your fattening up in the coming weeks. they want to make sure that those duck fat fries make it to you instead of to my booty. it isn’t very kind of me to hog the fatness.
did you know that in less than two weeks, i am considered full term? that means that if you were to come early, they wouldn’t stop you. wow. we have almost made it, sweet girl! but if you don’t mind, please stay in there a bit longer than two more weeks. your papa would relish the extra time to get those final ducks in a row. and i don’t mind the extra baby chub that you will gain. however, if you would like to join us a few days early, we wouldn’t mind that one bit! for some reason your papa thinks that you will be here by october 27th. i guess we’ll see if he is that smart and intuitive. october 27th! if you arrive then, that means you will be here with us THIS MONTH. oh. my. goodness. so soon! and we are so excited to see that little face of yours. eyelashes and all.
um, would you look at those little headbands? too cute, right? i bet you just can’t wait to wear them. i wonder what you look like…hair? peach fuzz? blonde? brunette? straight or curly? whose nose will you have? whose profile? ears? eyes? so many questions. your papa and i just can’t wait to meet you and discover the answers to all these questions and so many more.
what will your personality be like? quiet, contemplative, reserved. boisterous, outspoken, bold. sweet and shy. serious and sassy. will you have your papa’s musical ability? will you have my dramatic tendencies? will you be an avid reader? will you have a dash of nerdiness?
so many things are swirling in our minds right now. we like to talk about you before we fall asleep…and after all the discussion, we just pray. knowing that God is knitting you together and knows everything about you. we are comforted by this fact and we look forward to meeting you and discovering who he has made you to be. sweet girl, we pray that you love Jesus and follow hard after him for your whole life. may he be your identity, value, and joy.
1 samuel 1:27-28
for this child i prayed, and the Lord has granted me my petition that i made to him. so now i give her to the Lord. for her whole life she will be given over to the Lord.
you will be wearing that sweet little onesie oh so soon!
well hello. guess what? i got to hear your heartbeat again a few days ago. it was as wonderful as ever. and, it was wooshing away at a nice, strong pace. good work. all is well in there as far as the doctor can tell. you are growing and seem healthy and strong. that sweet doctor of mine made a note in my file that my “belly was measuring on the smaller side” so that i could have a medically justifiable excuse to see you again on an ultrasound! that means that at my next appointment, your papa and i will get to see your little face again…one more time before we get to see it in person. wahoo! it will have been almost 17 weeks since we’ve seen you. and that is much too long. in a short while, we will be so spoiled by getting to see you ALL THE TIME. happy day.
sweet little peanut, we love you so much. we have been thinking about you and praying for you and reading Bible stories to you. you will be here with us so soon and we can’t wait to get to know you. we have so much to learn about you. we have so much to learn about us. we have so much ahead of us as we begin to understand what it means to be parents and what it means to be a family of three.