dear peanut

oh, well, hello there!  as you can see, mozart the monkey is happily awaiting your arrival.  he has informed me, however, that his excitement is getting really intense and his patience is wearing thin.  so, you know, for mozart’s sake…you might want to consider coming soon.  for mozart.

us?  oh, we are fine.  yup.  just sitting here, patiently waiting for you.  the request isn’t for us.  we are good.  really, mozart is the one with the problem.

in other news…we have everything ready for you.  room ready.  car seat in.  bags packed.  plans made.  good to go.  your papa is on alert and is trying to maintain focus until he gets my call.  codename: skyfall.  that is the signal that things are starting to happen… skyfall.  we figured it was an apropos code.  it has a playful chicken little meets swanky secret agent 007 feel to it.

anywho…here we are.  still here.  waiting for skyfall.  any time, little one.  any time…  oh, we just can’t wait to meet you!

love, your mama + your papa

snaps & snippets & blurbs

happy monday!  still no baby around here…

but, we sure are having fun waiting for her to arrive.  lots of little tasks getting checked off the list, lots of time for sleeping in and movie watching.  and lots of time for cooking and eating.  this weekend, my sweet man whipped up that long-awaited pregnancy pasta that i was bragging about a few days back.  and yes, it was everything that we dreamed it would be.

let me assure you that we did more than just eat pasta this weekend.  but, those are the only pics that are making it onto today’s post.  because yes, it is worthy.

okay.  nursery?  check.  diapers?  check. car seat?  check.  stroller?  check.  clothing?  check.  pregnancy pasta?  check.

now, show yourself, baby!

{let the preparations begin}{garlic}{crisping up the prosciutto with the aromatic garlic olive oil}{charlie’s crazy eyes while coco spins…they really like their “shoot-oh” as ben calls it}{bubble, bubble}{whisking that carbonara sauce like a madman}{strands of creamy goodness}{final touches}{the final plate.  about two point three seconds before my fork dove in}

39 weeks

cravings & such:  i have been wanting protein, big time.  just my body’s way of getting geared up for something pretty major in the coming weeks.  i have also been wanting candy.  sour, sour candy.  [thanks halloween marketing].  and people have been offering to make spicy food for me.  our family seems to have some chefs with ulterior motives.

the bump:  oh yes, i have one of those.

cool & cute things:  she is just hanging out in there.  napping and stretching.  and packing on that layer of fat.

new things:  she weighs about 6 pounds 7 ounces according to our ultrasound tech.  she is a little thing.  but, healthy and happy with a strong heartbeat.  plus, she is head down and super low in my pelvis…assume the position!

meaningful moments:  getting to see her little face during a quick ultrasound check-in this week.  she was sleeping and all curled up in my hip bone.  and, she was making the cutest little sucking movements.  her little lips were moving away!  oh, she was just so sweet.  i can’t wait to see that little face.

the countdown:  7 days…one week!  come on…just a tad early

current size:  a mini watermelon.  although, i like to think of her as more of a seasonally adjusted, tiny pumpkin. 

dear peanut

oh my goodness.  what if this is my last dear peanut letter?  we are so close now that it is a real possibility.  your papa and i keep saying things like…this could be our last weekend, just the two of us…this could be our last dinner before she comes…this could be your last day at the office…this could be the last load of laundry before she arrives…and on and on and on.  we aren’t getting our hopes up that you will arrive early but we are doing our best to prepare, just in case.  the reality is that i could very well be writing three more letters to you [eek!  please don't linger that long!] before your arrival.  this sure is a lesson in patience, little one.

God is teaching me to be still.  even though i am so very excited to meet you and get to know you, i am trying to soak up the last moments of this season.  i am trying to enjoy the final days of pregnancy…i know that not everybody gets to experience the birth of their child in this physical manner.  so, i am trying to not complain but to be grateful that my Heavenly Father has allowed me to carry you.  that He has allowed my body to adjust and to sustain you for this long.  so many women cannot conceive.  so many women have turbulent pregnancies.  some women’s bodies fight against them.  some women’s bodies just can’t or won’t carry them through to the end.  i have been given this special gift of pregnancy and heaven forbid that i take that for granted.  in my moments of frustration, i remind myself that God has blessed me with this time and wants to use this time to mold my heart.  no complaining allowed!

God is using all of it to prepare me.  when i bump my bump into a chair, He is teaching me to slow down and be watchful.  when i cannot do the things that i used to do in the same way, He is teaching me that i am not in control and that i need to rely on His supply and grace.  when i get frustrated, He is teaching me self-control.  when i have to swallow yet another capsule or vitamin or healthy supplement, He is teaching me to put the needs of others before my own.  God has me in training.  i am training to be a parent.  He is molding me into a mother.  preparing my heart for your arrival.  and i need to take advantage of this time because once you arrive, little one, we move into major on-the-job training.  bring on the feeding charts and piles of diapers and pediatrician visits and sleep deprivation.  it is going to be so blissfully bewildering.

love, your mama + your papa

38 weeks

cravings & such:  nothing new to report here.  just enjoying some of our favorite restaurants and meals before becoming a family of three.

the bump:  getting bigger and feeling heavier these days.  bumping the bump into things is super fun…

cool & cute things:  baby has really plumped up!  she probably weighs about 6.5 pounds and is over 19.5 inches log.  if she is born with brown eyes, they’ll likely stay brown.  if she is born with steel gray or dark blue eyes, they may stay gray or blue OR turn green, hazel, or brown by the time she is 9 months old.  a child’s irises may gain more pigment in the months after birth but the usually won’t get “lighter” or more blue.  can’t wait to see them!  blue like papa?  greenish gray like her mama? brown like grandmama ridley?

new things:  baby girl has a firm grasp and her organs have matured to the point where she is ready for life outside the womb.  wahoo!  we are ready for life outsde the womb too.

meaningful moments:  playing with the baby carrier.  perusing the pages of her new books.  interviewing a naturopathic pediatrician [who we just love!]  enjoying her movements.  picking out fabric for a cute little project with my mom…montessori teething rings with mini minky blankets.  too cute.  thanks mom!

the countdown:  14 days! two weeks, give or take… 

current size:  the length of a leek

pregnancy pasta

image courtesy of tylerflorence.com

so, we are big fans of tyler florence. see here and here. he makes good food. the recipes seem super gourmet and the ingredients are incredible. but…you can do it! and the final dish always turns out perfectly. he has the unique gift of being able to bring chef-style preparations and restaurant-quality dishes to life. at home.

he is our go-to guy.

many, many, many months ago. waaayyy pre-preggo. hubby and i were perusing the pages of cookbooks and he stumbled upon an amazing pasta recipe. we are talking pancetta carbonara, folks. to die for. the subtitle for the recipe was “a.k.a. my wife’s pregnancy pasta”. hmmm. ben looked at me with joy in his eyes and said “won’t that be fun to make when you are pregnant?!” and so, the recipe was filed away under “someday”.

well, “someday” has officially arrived. and my sweet hubby [man, i have a good one] is going to whip up a giant bowl of this rich, creamy, comforting goodness.   i can’t wait to dig in! and yes, there will be drool-worthy pictures to come.  if the real thing looks anything like the professional shot above, we are in for some tasty stuff.

dear peanut

hello there miss peanut.  i hope you are having fun hanging out in my pelvis!  must be a nice change of scenery for you.  i can tell that you are reveling.  i must say, while i like that you have shifted down out of the ribs [sweet full lung capacity!] you are making things a bit more goofy in the “walking” arena.  hmmm.  please don’t make me resort to waddling, little one.  not a cute look.

on a super adorable note: we got your diaper starter pack in the mail and they are just the cutest things!  your papa even brought one into work with him to show off how tiny you are and how precious those little BM-collectors are.  i think he’s got it pretty bad.  papa-citis has taken over.  and i am no better.  we are officially those people.  the ones who tear-up over smooshy, squiggly, and goofy-looking ultrasounds.  the ones who show off diapers to co-workers.  diapers!  the ones who ooh and ahh over crocheted baby hats.  the ones who sniff baby lotion. [that one might be just me]  we are your parents.  your earthly stewards.  the ones that God has predestined to care for you and raise you.  what a tremendous blessing and calling.  what an overwhelming gift.  and you are stuck with us, little one.  all our flaws and eccentricities and personality.  in spite of it all, please know that our hearts’ desire is to be godly parents…with a generous helping of grace and plenty of prayer.  we love you and we take you and our new role very seriously.  such a prodigious, substantial, considerable [and all words BIG] responsibility swaddled into such a tiny package.  you are a precious gift from our Heavenly Father that we will preserve, cherish, love, cultivate, and polish.  for His glory and for our good.

love, your mama + your papa

37 weeks

full term!

full term!

FULL TERM!

cravings & such:  nothing special.  anything yummy works for me.  i am watching the excessive sodium intake [sorry chips and queso] to help keep thoses snuffaluffagus-esque ankles at bay.

the bump:  getting bigger and moving a lot.  baby girl likes to test the tactile strength of my uterus by stretching-out into forbidden territory.  liiike…my ribcage!  or my sides.  i think she is trying to wrap her legs around me to see if her toes can meet up at my spine.  i keep telling her “nope.  that zone isn’t for you, little one.  you get the belly area”.  does she listen?  um, no.  a sign of her determined nature for sure.

cool & cute things:  if i were to go into labor today, her lungs would be mature enough to fully adjust to life outside the womb.

new things:  baby weighs about 6 pounds and measures about 19 inches long.

meaningful moments:  putting her little diapers into the dresser drawer.  placing the changing pad on the dresser.  practicing with our new baby carrieroooh, hubby is going to look so dreamy carrying our little girl!  is there a more handsome sight to behold?  can’t wait.  the first load of baby clothing.  all those teeny tiny baby things make laundry day so much better!  [yes, i know.  i hear myself.  i am savoring this feeling now and saving it for later on so that i can reference it when i am knee-deep in cloth diapers and spit up.  and then, i will laugh at my silly former self before diving into yet another load of "all those teeny tiny baby things that make laundry day so much better".  laundry day which now equals every day.  yes, life is about to change.]

the countdown:  21 days.  did i mention, full term?  three weeks – give or take – to go!

current size:  the length of a stalk of swiss chard

dear peanut

::  our baby faces  ::

hello there, little peanut.  your parents are pretty excited to meet you.  we keep staring at your sonogram.  that little nose.  your ears.  the eyelashes.  your tiny fingers all curled up next to your mouth.  the hair.  it is kind of our new favorite thing.  a parental pacifier to keep us from jumping out of our skin from excitement.  you will be here so soon!  my goodness.  we can’t wait to meet you and see that precious face.  will you have your papa’s nose?  will you have my hair?  i hope you don’t mind if we just sit and stare at you for a while once you arrive.  because the real thing will be so much better than the sonogram…

just so you know, i have scheduled out all of my doctor appointments from now until the due date.  woah.  on the calendar.  the doctor was happy with us this week and said that everything was progressing beautifully.  your heartbeat is strong.  my blood pressure is good.  you are growing at a consistent rate.  and the belly size is small but solid.  all good.  just waiting for the right time.

love, your mama + your papa

….

JOINT FAMILY ADDENDUM

with regard to the aforementioned “right time” remark:  your entire family respectfully requests that you, while chatting with God, mention the following arrival tips and suggestions.  you know, in case He asks your opinion on the matter…your family has some ideas and opinions [ahem, always] to help you along.

  • please, do not arrive earlier than sunday, october 21.
  • saturday, october 27 – tuesday, october 30 are nice dates.
  • please, no halloween birthday.  the ongoing birthday party expectations are frankly, overwhelming for everyone.
  • if not before wednesday, october 31, please refrain from a thursday, november 1 or friday, november 2 arrival.
  • saturday, november 3 – monday, november 5 are good days too.  try to steer clear of election day.  too much political pressure that day.  it is best to stay put and swim around for a bit longer in a blissful state of unawareness.
  • PLEASE do not loiter in the uterus for longer than one week past your due date.  i know it seems nice in there, but we’ve got some soft, warm, and cozy things waiting for you on the outside.
  • if you must delay, please do not come on saturday, november 10.  that is coco’s birthday.  the poor thing already has enough personality disorders and neuroses, we don’t want to send her off the deep end by making her share a birthday with the “favored, non-furry” baby of the family.  who knows which of your stuffed animals she might rip to shreds in a psychotic break… let us just keep the familial peace and sidestep the issue altogether.

with respect and love,

[and in the knowledge that it is God who numbers our days]

[and with an understanding that the same God who knows the number of grains of sand considers our requests]

your nerdy, scheduled, active, and kooky family. 

don’t roll your eyes, little miss, i’m sure you’ve got some of these genes going on…

36 weeks

cravings & such:  same ol’ stuff.  the usual snacks and healthiness…with a weekly [or more] date night, big meal splurge.

the bump:  solid.  a solid ball of baby.  a swirling, waving, kicking solid ball of baby.

cool & cute things:  she is packing on the pounds.  but doctor says that she does appear to be on the smaller side of the scale.  i mean, her folks aren’t exactly giants, so…  she is close to 5 1/4 pounds now and about 18 inches long.  honestly, i don’t know how 18 inches of baby is curled up inside the “ball” but she is doing it.  hurray for the incredible yoga baby!

new things:  baby girl is shedding most of the downy hair that has covered her body, as well as the vernix [white, waxy stuff that coats and protects the skin while she floats in the amniotic fluid...it keeps her from coming out all prune-y].  baby is ingesting these things [gross. don't worry, we will improve upon that menu soon, my dear] to help practice her digestion and to create her first bowel movement.  get fired up for baby bowel movements folks!

meaningful moments:  organizing tiny baby clothes!  all those onesies and tiny pants and kimonos and leggings and socks.  teeny tiny and just itching for a baby to fill them out.  well, not itching…they are getting a gentle and soothing tumble in safe-for-baby-skin wash.  soft, soft, soft.

the countdown:  28 days

current size:  a crenshaw melon [whatever that is].  sounds fancy.  like a melon with a british accent.